I Just don't Care Anymore...

March 28, 2012

I'm taking a double dose every other day now.  I'll taper back down to once daily soon.  Sleep has been interrupted due to a new device I am testing out.  But hopefully I'll be used to it by next week... No weight loss (but no gain either).  I still feel ADDish... but that could be attributed to the season (tax)... My MOOD feels better and better every day.  I don't get so upset when husband says something profoundly stupid.

  
I found a very interesting article today on the Amberen Facebook page:  Huffington Post: Will Your Marriage Survive Menopause?   This quote really jumped at me:
During menopause a woman's brain also goes through changes. Dr. Louann Brizendine (author of The Female Brain) says, "The mommy brain unplugs. Menopause means the end of the hormones that have boosted communication circuits, emotion circuits, the drive to tend and care, and the urge to avoid conflict at all costs."

The whole article is interesting - but this quote... BAM!  Sometimes I just don't CARE anymore!  I actually noticed this feature of motherhood leaving me, and was a little worried about it.  I don't CARE as much as I used to... I don't want to FIX things as much as I used to.  I don't care if I offend or upset "the husband in the chair"...

There it is in black and white.  I'm not the only one. There is a literal brain-thing that happens.  THE MOMMY BRAIN UNPLUGS!  Who knew?  I remember when my mother must have started this phase.  She would say, "I have to go now dear,"  right in the middle of my crisis!  I wish she were here so I could share this revelation with her...  Thankfully I have this blog to share it with... Has anyone else noticed their Mommy Brain Unplugging?  Am I the only one who will admit it feels kind of nice?  

Feeling a little frisky!

March 20, 2012

WOO HOO... I'm feeling goooood... even a little frisky!  (A good night's sleep doesn't hurt either.)  One more week of doubles and I'll taper back... wonder if I could take them every other day to save some coinage?  Will have to noodle that one...   My weight gain is scaring me... and I am going to double up on my exercise routine... let's see... two times nothing equals nothing... I guess I'll have to ADD instead of multiply!   The Amberen commercials focus a LOT on the "loss of belly fat" - maybe if I stick with it, things will start happening in that arena as well...  I'll check in next week, unless something miraculous happens in the meantime...

Starting Double Dose

March 13, 2012

Popped four of those puppies this morning... let's get this going!

Jury is Still out

March 11, 2012

The jury is still out... I think I'll double up for a week to kick things into gear a little faster.  I did that the first go around, and it seemed the help.  I'm not 100% convinced anymore... but now I'm afraid to stop.  I do feel somewhat calmer, and it is tax season, where crazy is the norm... and I haven't fallen apart completely.  Oh don't worry... I'm not giving up, but I'm also going to ask the doctor about some other issues... like a possible never-diagnosed ADHD personality.  I tried an Adderall, just to see if it would help, and the C.L.A.R.I.T.Y. and C.A.L.M was beyond my wildest dreams... maybe this is all about an issue I've had since childhood, and not hormones at all.. or a combination of both... who knows anymore.

I did read that some women only do this 90-day cycle of Amberen twice a year. I hope that after I can "kick into gear" that maybe I can take one every other day or so... I'm just trying to find ways to stay balanced, but also stay on a budget!    It hasn't even been a month yet, so I'll just keep plugging away... I'm just so impatient!

By the way... someone asked me if I was affiliated with AMBEREN - NO I AM NOT!  I am just a crazy menopausal woman who heard about it on a Dr. Laura commercial!  There are so many testimonials FOR and AGAINST the product.  This is just my little personal journey which I wanted to share with anyone who happened to stop by to read it... I hope I am not stepping on any copyright toes by doing this... 

Back to 35%

March 2, 2012

Another week... My Amberen Life is still not completely back - but maybe at 35%... my physical health is at 80% - still coughing a little... but the weather is 100% beautiful!  I was able to let something roll off my back, which would have sent me into a tailspin a few weeks ago.  I might still bitch to my girlfriends, but am able to let it go and maybe even just giggle a little.   I could double up on the dosage, like I did in the first round to get things going, but I'm being a cheap-skate and trying to ration them.  I wish I could take one every other day - but I'm going to wait awhile to do that.  It's only been a couple weeks, but I'm so impatient.  I'll keep plugging away... crossing my fingers... hoping these were not a waste of money...